Weekend

The weekend is in full swing, but not really for me :-p Pretty much everyone else has plans and things they are doing and I'm just holding down the fort I guess. But it's fun getting to hear how much fun they are having. I think my night is going to consist of 3 or 4 fluffy pillows, a good book, some green tea and perhaps even a little scented candle action. In fact that sounds so terrific that I'm going to take advantage of the quiet time right now!!!

on the bright side

Today isn't going to be a very busy day. There are really only a few things that I specifically planned to do today. One of which is date night! It'll be the first one in a little over two years. I'm pretty excited about it. Other than that though I'm just going to be finishing up a few things before the weekend. Waiting for a phone call as well about the new school we put the application in for. I should hear back from them sometime today, if not I'll probably just touch base with them on Monday. It feels kinda nice to have a low key day after having such a weird last few days/months. I feel the Christmas cheer now so things are looking good, I think it'll be a fun rest of the month.

Testing

I think I'm being tested already. Just yesterday I was so determined to begin to change my ways. Not to shy away or back down when something seemed stressful or tedious or pointless. I wasn't going to let my mind and emotions talk me out of things that I'd like to have and relationships I'd like to build. It's pretty ridiculous that I can read one thing and pretty much rethink my entire existence. I guess this is the first wall I have to fight through. Someone recently said to me that I couldn't change what people are going to do, if they want to have a relationship with you they'll have one. She's a pretty smart lady. It may just be in my head but sometimes it seems as if it's hard to have a relationship if the wrong you've done is still held on to. If I don't address the wrong I've done, am I being selfish? How often should I apologize for it? Are they just waiting for me to fail again like I always do? Shouldn't let them down should I?

I truly believe that ones self is the ultimate enemy. I believe that once you are sound and secure in your own life and mind that it really wont matter quite as much what other people do or say. I believe that with every single ounce of me. I just don't know how to get there, yet.

breathe, and focus

Alright so it's definitely been longer than forever. I have no excuse. For some reason once something happens and I miss one day, in my head I start going 'well I guess I can wait until this weekend' and then all the sudden that weekend passes. Then my mind goes at it again with something along the lines of 'it's been so long am I just suppose to pick up where I left off?' Blah!

I had an interesting weekend, fun, exciting, nerve wracking, scary, emotional, anger filled, embarrassing, encouraging, delightful and confusing kind of all mushed together. It didn't really stop at the weekend either it has filled today as well. I am hopeful that perhaps tomorrow will be a little more on the calm side, or maybe even just predictable. . . hmmm, nah I think I'll stick with hoping for calm.

I've almost completed my long over due task of sending off my oldest sisters gifts. It's taken forever but every time I think I have it all together I either add a little something or one of the girls does something that I'd like to send as well. I have officially put a deadline on it though. It is being sent out on Friday, no matter how many pictures need to be drawn or pictures need to be printed out or what ever. Friday, Friday, Friday! lol, and that is this Friday the 10th of December 2010, just in case my mind tries to make it next Friday or something.

I visited my sister this weekend, the middle sister. She looks pretty amazing. It's fascinating that you couldn't imagine someone being prettier and then they become pregnant and it's like a whole different kind of pretty. She's nesting like crazy and I just hope she gets some down time in between all her tasks. She's a busy bee.

I think I'm going to get a day planner and actually schedule out my days. I've realized that I don't like going months without talking to my sisters. Or going too long without having a playful day of photo taking with my girls. Or not having a date night in over 2 years. Or seeing friends in. . . well I can't even remember the last time. Or having HUGE gaps in my writing or blogging. I've begun to notice that I spend so much time wishing that I was closer with certain people or productive in the relationship rather than just doing it. could of, would of and should of are phrases that I'm going to try to weed out of my life.

Tangled

I began working on some crochet projects and after a small misunderstanding with wookie I ended up with a tangled mess of yarn. Sadly now instead of having one ball of yarn I have six because of all the cutting that had to be done to untangle the yarn. Luckily the project that I am working on has plenty of places for ends to be tucked into without noticing at all.

Oh my I'm pretty excited for tonight! Dog the bounty hunter's new season is starting. There is just something about the show that I just love. Right afterwards is the Steven segal show 'lawman'. Funny story about that when I first saw a commercial for his show I thought it said lawn-man. I was like ummm, how exciting can a lawn man be to have his own show.. .. ..
.. .. .. Well I guess it'd probably be about as interesting as a stay at home mom whom is a home body having a blog .. .. :)

A new week

The week is off to a better start than this weekend. School and fall germs are everywhere. We all seemed to take turns getting a slight cold bug and then a bug that was much much worse took over. I have done more laundry and given more baths and used more cool wash cloths to lower fevers than I have all year. I am slightly hopeful that the end of all this is in sight. There was 4 straight hours of sleep last night, which since all this started is actually very very good.

I can't wait to get back to my projects I started. I am begining a cactus garden! I'm really excited about it. I've had a few little single ones here and there. But, I'm going to take my time and build me up a pretty window cactus garden. I found some with amazing colors that I just couldn't stop thinking about.

I am thinking about tryng to grow a few more things indoors but I haven't quite decided if I can spare the space yet.

The laundry, baths and cool wash cloths are calling me back into duty . . . . . .

The Rain

The rain has pretty much taken over. Although in Washington, that's pretty expected. I mean how else would we have such greenery around here right? When it comes to rain it's necessary for me to mentally establish the benefits of it, otherwise it just seems like a downer sometimes.

My tomato plants have been drowned by the rain. My pretty pretty, slow growing, single yielding, temperamental tomato plants are officially out for the count.




I had four plants all together. I had a pear, a roma, a steak and a cherry tomato plant.






These were my plants. . . oh how I'll miss them. I'm thinking next year I'm actually going to try to have a makeshift shelter, more of a home for them. But for this year, my garden is down to two cilantro plants......

crochet dog

I've been working on crocheting the pattern of Werner the wiener dog from Amigurumi super happy crochet cute. it's been going rather well. I've chosen different colors than were suggested in the pattern to more closely resemble the wiener dogs in my life.







I'm half way through the main body piece, and have finished the head short of the facial details. The head is done all in the round which makes it both easier and a little tricky.
The body is unstuffed which makes the head to body ratio a little off. But things should look much better by the next post, my fingers are crossed.

First one!

Finally my first orange tomato!! Out of my four plants with plenty of small green tomatoes there is finally one that has turned orange! I'm so excited. I'm hoping for enough to make one really good salad, but I think I'll be happy with just this one :)

I haven't been feeling too terrific, just one of those colds that wont turn into anything serious but you cant quite shake either. But after making myself get up and be productive I had a rather nice day. I walked with the baby while Justice rode her bike. Afterwards I cleaned carpets, and reorganized my kitchen and laundry area. Not a bad day after all.

sunshine (on the inside)

It was a rainy day today. I barely was able to sneak outside long enough to take a couple pictures of my tomato plants. I have four plants that seem to be developmentally behind pretty much everyone elses plants. They are still very very green, and small. But they are trying and that's what counts!

I don't remember quite how my sister taught me how to post the pictures, but I'm going to try with the next post. I'll have to remember a few passwords and such but it should be do-able.

I've been working on a crochet wiener dog. I have finished the head minus the facial details and now I'm working on the main body piece. I had to take a break from it because my finger was beginning to get rather tender. I also took pictures of this project but I'll post the pictures and more details with the next post.

I'm going to get back to my night, I'm attempting to get back in to the swing of a school schedule. Thankfully I have one more practice night!!

Lots of work to do

I've just checked out my sisters blog again, and man oh man does mine need a lot of work!

Fresh start

I've made a new blog! Every journey begins with that first step, so here's to stepping!